I'm hungry tired and not very happy.
Why does everything like to go bad at once? Crush rejects me, one I truly love chooses her and not me, grades are falling, stress is rising, depression nearing... Social anxiety not improving.
I just want to go to sleep and for it all to go away... I want to go into a coma of dreams so I can be at peace... So I can run in the fields and live with the fairies, chase the butterflies, kiss, laze, daydream, fly.
I'd rather live there than here. I'd rather be mind-dead than this way. I'd rather sleep forever than find things to lose that I will lose.
I want to sleep forever. And that's it. I don't want to die, I want to sleep. Sleep and not wake up.. Not wake up until the world decides it's done killing me... Not wake up until love is present and fate stops killing me.
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