Mm..

I talked to Zandry today.......
I guess I shouldn't be talking to him too much.. I couldn't help it today though. I shouldn't too much more, because
such only reminds me how much I'm going to miss him.. What about him I'll miss, everything.. *sigh*

I shouldn't linger much on it all.. I really shouldn't..

Because, if he does happen to pick me, I have all the time in the world. If not, these are the last days. And though I want to take hold of the last days to talk to him, it'll only make it hurt so much more.

I'll try not to hope.. No, I won't. He's not going to choose me. I'll be okay. I don't want the shock.. So I'll expect it.
This is going to suck...