Well, sent a serious letter today. I'm happy to hear from him but I don't want joy crap until I know what I'm getting into. What is the same, what has changed, has anything changed?
Thing is, I can't get over him, however I try. I really look around, but I can't find anyone who compares in the patience and kindness he shows towards me, the humor and willingness to have fun and be stupid with me. The acceptance, however weird I act some days or whatever stupid things upset me. It's hard to find these people.
So, yeah, I can't. I try, I've been doing fairly well considering how much I like him. I went days without sorrow nor real loneliness, if I got lonely I talked to Weston and if I got sad I talked to my mom or went out somewhere. But eventually it kinda caught up with me. Weston's issues with his love started to remind me, and my crush whom is nice but doesn't have enough in common with me. I realized, it's really hard to move on. I was excited at first to have someone to crush on, but there was a tinge of sadness behind it that for a while I didn't understand. Finally realized, it's because, I don't want to move on. I want him. No one else. Zandry and only Zandry.
Yet it's complicated. So what the heck.
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