One Last...

I do a lot of entries when I can't think straight.

Too and fro
Forever backwards I go
Too and fro
I'm seeing
Which way you want
To go home
Which way
You want to go home
Never forward
Never backward
Just too and fro
Too and fro

Now why d'ya feel
And all lights go on
But in your eyes
And all lights go on
Now lights go on
Now lights go on
Now lights go on

You don't take it
You're like a child .
-Nothing In The Middle, Nothing At the End, Cranes

Like all our love that comes to an end
A flame of our love, a flame without end
We touch a while, say goodbye again
Here's to a love and our scattered friends ...

On top of the world ... a day without end
The hope in your heart is starting to mend
And you know where you are at this time of your life
Under your star and it's shining so bright ...

Here's the love
On which we depend
Here's to love
And our scattered friends
-On Top of the World, Cranes
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I don't want to close my eyes. I don't want another day. I don't want another thought. I don't want tomorrow. I fear tomorrow. I fear the empty. Fear it all. I don't want.. Anything to.. Be.
I just want it to go away. I just want happy and I want the sad to go away. Go away. I want happy to come back. I want a smile and I want the reasons not to to go away. I want to smile. I want to smile a lot. I want a happy day without fear without doubt without pain. GIve me it.
Close my eyes.
Another day on the bus downtown, another story's end? Oh if I know, as if I know..