Whenever someone stands next to me I feel like shouting at them to go away, or like they're going to grab my shoulder or say something mean to me. Whenever my little brother does I wince. I'm afraid of them. I want them to stop looking and stop staring and stay away. It makes me feel sick.
He just did it. Again. Stop it.
He stares at my screen and I'm watching some inappropriate joke or something. Why the hell does he keep looking..
It's like having someone see you looking at porn. But I'm not. I'm just doing my thing, watching jokes and stuff. Yet I feel the same way.
I take self-portraits for fun but I don't post any because I'm sure everyone's sick of looking at me. I feel like one of those cutters who takes pictures of her cut up arms. I don't do that, nor do I self harm. But I feel selfish and dumb posting myself all the time, though I don't have much to take pictures of.
I'm afraid to ask to hang out with my own friends. I don't know why. I feel like I'm annoying them, wasting their time for a boring day with me.
I'm starting to hate boys again, because I swear all they do is cause pain and embarrassment in my life. I feel like I'm doomed to be tricked into another.. joy that will turn to hell.
I slack off in school these days. I don't have the willpower to finish what I'm given, with my emotional problems and everything..
Bleh. Confessions?
1 comment:
I know.. Some do, some don't. It's a common assumption though that they want attention. *shrugs* Seems the only reason why is because people give them attention even if they're not wanting or asking for it.
Hah. Indeed.
Haha *poke*
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