Ah Damn

I'm really, really, really unwilling to do homework tonight. I have a lot to do, and I don't wanna do a thing. I don't want to.
The thing is, I think I'm going to fail my classes. I have a make up test to do in japanese, and three worksheets to make up. In my other class, biology.. I got a C on the test. And in math I'm just not doing so well.
So crap. Crap.

I don't want my grades to go to hell.. I had a heartbreak during school last year and I did fine, will I be so fortunate this year, with these really serious and dangerous grading teachers?

Scary......
Mom said when she got me dance tickets she ran into my Japanese teacher, Mrs. Tashibu, and mentioned that I was frustrated because I said I didn't have time to study much for the test and didn't do well. She said not to worry, that I did fine. I hope she was telling the truth. Because I really had no idea at all what I was doing on that test. I was absent while we learned number and days of week kanji (kanji is that crazy crazy million line japanese character group..), and I had about ten minutes to study total, memorizing it all when I'd never written any of it before. So what the hell. I don't see how I could have passed that.

I loath school, you all already know that.

Wess said I'll probably have another hissy fit tomorrow or the next day when I really realize how much this sucks. (relationship being gone, bit of a heartbreak)

Because there's no way I can get over it with three poems and one and a half hissy fits. I need another. Haha.
Angst.

Anyway. I'm.. okay?

I'm going to see if I can find a black ribbon. I'm going to wear it on my arm until I feel okay again.. .. Symbolizes being miserable in the back of my head.

I'm going to go rest my eyes and procrastinate a bit.. So I can relax and not freak. Pills, ah yes. I don't want any anxiety on top of depression.


A really good song is FLY [Small Circle of Friends] by Tsutchie - fat jon
It just has that groove, lol. Well, I'm just liking that song right now.
See ya. Hugs.