Replacement

I'll take your word for it that 'What If' is wrong..
But something bites inside that says, I may merely be that, whether you realize it now, or not.
Remember. She thought I would replace her.
Feeling a replacement isn't the best. Because I've always felt second best, no matter who I'm with, no matter what they say. Usually true, too. And for reasons that make sense.
I suppose it's simply impossible to find someone who will pick me over someone else, because there's always someone better out there. And I must admit, I'm definitely not the best person. Irritable and quiet, withdrawn and opinionless. I can be fairly boring, and when you talk to me, I'll always be slow to respond. Spacing off most of the time, and I'm not used to being talked to. I have to find someone who's odd enough to appreciate that. Though I don't think many like a boring quiet person.
You must admit, I sort of am a replacement. I am yours, temporary good company. If she was back, well, gone in a flash. If you had the choice, you'd be gone in a flash. Because what's the point of waiting for someone you may never have, when there's someone even better right there with you?
If not her, someone else. Someday. I'm a mere stepping stone in your way on your path, and like it or not, someday you'll continue on your way.


"Don't say its useless, don't say forget it, don't bring me wishes of silly dreams.. Don't leave me lonely, don't leave me unhappy, just bring me up into your fate. If you don't need me, then don't deceive me, letting my freedom turn into stone.. Just be my angel, if you love me. Be my angel, in the night. Be my angel, cause you need me. Be my angel, and treat me right. Don't say you love me, if you don't mean that. Don't send me roses on your behalf. Just take me down, and walk through your river. Down the middle, and make it last... Don't say it's useless, and don't say forget it. You are my spirit, and I am your guard."
-Mazzy Star