Oookay..

(written last night, never posted)

So apparently that much is too much.
I find, that feeling as I do now, one pill actually did do enough. It 'takes off the edge' as my mom said. There's no way I'll ever completely get rid of my social anxiety, but I at least won't feel sick to the stomach and turn red as much.
Right now I feel short of breath and nervous to the point of not being able to sleep nor get comfortable. Like my throat tightens and it's hard to.. I don't know. But it's not fun. Just tense. So I'm going back to one, thank you. Where I feel a little nervous but not terribly nervous.