Hm..

Apparently the pills did do something, because I feel sick to the stomach with worry.
I turned red when getting my photographs, and I can't shake off this icky feeling that something bad will happen. I feel like tomorrow will be a disaster, and I can't sit still. Butterflies in my stomach and I just want to close my eyes and not think.

I'm nervous.. Feel icky. So I always felt like this before? I had forgotten for a while.. So the meds had at least killed off that sick feeling I got on Sunday nights, and days before tests. Mm.....
I've just been changed to a slightly higher dose, because I was on low dosage before. This one takes a while to work. I hope it does sometimes soon, because I feel so tense. I found it difficult to breathe in my fear of... everything. It's amazing how overwhelming everything can be for me. Ah.. I don't feel well.
I'm suddenly nervous about everything.. So this is why the presentations left me shaking. I feel like this, when nothing is even happening..

It's a pity I have to be like this. It would be so much easier if I wasn't.