Dear Diary..

I'll pretend this is my diary.. ish.
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Dear Diary, today.. Was interesting. What can I say. I'm happy to say Zandry is alive and breathing, and he is at least.. Nearly back, or, I don't have to worry as much. I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for dinner, gah.. I'm hungry. I'd like some chocolate milk right now, but I'm busy writing this. I used up the last photo on my disposable camera. Mom saw me when I finally got off the phone, and asked me if I had any photos left. I said yes, I had one left. She had me pose in front of the door, and took a picture. She was saying how nice I looked in these pants, how I'm 'quite curvy and well-figured'. Haha, curvy.. that sounds odd to me. Good hips or something? Hah.. interesting. I guess curvy is a good thing in girls, mm..? Hm..
I have so many batteries sitting around needing to be recharged.. I'll put them away finally, because there are some in one camera and more on my shelf which have been forgotten. I've been finding a lack of charged batteries, so that's probably why.
I'm huuungry.. I should eat something very soon.
I find it ironic that Zandry finally came on once I left. I was.. Where was I..? Oh.. I hardly know. I was taking a shower, ah. And applying makeup. I only do that when I'm sad, lonely, or really bored. Play with my face. It's fun sometimes, but I prefer not to. It's bad when you get too used to how you look with it on, because then you start to believe you're ugly without it.
Yeah.. though Zandry's not been around, I forgive him. It's not like it's his fault exactly for being gone so much.. I think. His computer sucks, his brother hogs, and he has school.. Yeah. But I wish he'd be around more.. I miss him. Since school started we've been talking less because of how busy we are. I wish we could talk more..
He's perfect as usual, though. Just how I like guys to be.. Against drugs, smoking, drinking.. Listens and is kind and takes lightly of my mistakes... Funny. But he seemed quite gloomy when I talked to him, but obviously he had his reasons. God did I miss him. I was so relieved that he wasn't upset with me.. er.. not that I could tell. I was so glad to hear his voice.. Far too long. Missed him terribly. I was being driven out of my mind, not knowing if he was okay, not knowing what he was doing and if he was alive. It really scares me when he's gone so long, because.. I just don't know!

I'm going to eat and call him now, because it seems he's not coming online.
-Tanya