Yawn..

I'm tired... .. blah...................
Can't stop yawning...
Keep forgetting to eat because I wake up too late.. Mmph..

I wonder if you'll make it here.. Not much summer left.. How fun it would be to visit you. *yawns*
Meh.. As if I need more paranoia then I've got.
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Keep going blank and don't really know what to do.. I guess I want to try painting. My pet peeve with pencil work is that you can't damned go over it after you draw it.. It just smears and screws up and you just have to deal with it. With paint you can kinda go over mistakes.. So that'd be fun. I've never really painted.. But I could try.

Alex is harassing me again..
Only my friends would ever be able to respect my choice that I've made.. Well wait a second, Ariel called me crazy. But I have to agree, it is. But my friends don't know, because I rarely talk to them.. Eh, 'thus is life'

I respect that no one can understand. Just keep it to yourself, I deal with these things. If it's a mistake, at least I'll learn from it. I enjoy things for however long they last, and I like my life that way. I can't put hope into anything to work, so I enjoy it as it comes..
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Maybe if I sleep now I can get back on schedule. But I'm going to watch a movie and maybe I can drag mom with me downtown, though it's late.. I like going downtown. It's been too long. I remember we were on a bus in the middle of the night.. It's always interesting seeing who's there at such a time.

I remember the last time I did, I had a decision to make. I think downtown makes me happy no matter what happens, just because you see all the other people, with the funny things you eavesdrop them saying, with their funny characters.. I always wonder who they are. And it gives me a writing inspiration. I'm having trouble writing poetry these days. I suppose that's a good thing, because I write poetry most when I'm unhappy, a way to vent. Anyway.. Good evening.