Never really know what to say. The time goes and I find myself enjoying less and less. Well, that doesn't sound nice.. Just.... The smallest things run out and I hardly savor them anymore. Eating is a bother and I lose sleep. Tell me, how do you all enjoy life? I question how..
Negativity is all the news is... If you watch it too long, you'll be convinced the world is ending. So I don't watch the news.
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I love the lyrics of Cocteau Twins as they're mostly for the sound... Pretty.
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Again. Unsure what to say. Future and fate are the two most haunting things. What happens after this? Never will know. Don't know who I'll hurt and what will hurt me, I have to take things as they come. It bothers me... I don't know what will last and what to expect. What can you do but be numb..? Numb and hope for the best. A sigh, as that somedays, pain seems to overthrow the happy moments. I wonder how to savor it and how to enjoy it.
But... .. There are little things that make it worth it.. I suppose.
Eh.. A lot of days I get into these 'it's useless, why bother' sort of moods.. It's not unusual for me. You already know. The whole dreamer but dreams don't come true thing. Eh, it's a real downer. My fear of ever day things also makes it a bit... hard. School scares me. T__T I don't like itttt... So many chances to screw up and such.. *a sigh* Don't know why it worries me but... I'm out of practice. Unknowing how to please and failing. A true loser you could say. A true loner. I haven't been to one party nor seen one friend all summer... Even though I can. I called one once.. But.. ... ..
*chuckles* I'm forgotten, because I've forgotten everyone, I suppose. I hope they're all doing well... But I'll never really know.
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