Ooo It Burns!

Haha, I'm in pain. Well, not as much anymore.. but ow.. ow ow ow.
I hate to whine. But ow.
I'm so hungry.... :(

Today is like.. ... ... Uwah.
I just want to lie down and die because my legs are killing me.
But I'll be better in a while. Once I have dinner I'll be less near tears.

My legs have this funny habit of feeling like they're on fire when I walk too long in the cold. And these boots have a funny habit for blisters. And I have a funny habit of getting stressed out when around people. So combine all three, and you have a girl with her legs on fire, feet hurting and a very large headache. ... Do you ever have one of those days were you just want to tear out your hair and scream? Today is that day. And even if I did nothing today, I would still feel like tearing out my hair. Because, it's just one of those days.

When it's one of those days, PLEASE don't make me go outside because I 'need fresh air'. And PLEASE don't get lost and PLEASE don't make us walk an extra mile. Please. And please don't sit me in the middle of a crowd of talking people with a loud shriek of the train grinding the track in the background. I felt like jumping into incoming traffic.

So, it was fine at first. But I was grumpy and very tired even before it started to hurt. We had a walk and I felt okay but the people were making my head hurt, and I diverted my eyes. I didn't feel like talking and I didn't want to go into any stores. I didn't really want to do anything today. We sat out with the people and I felt myself tense up and feel uncomfortable among so many talking people.. I couldn't enjoy the sights and sounds, the way I was feeling. We wandered and I followed. We turn around, start to head back. 8:00, hadn't had dinner yet. I started to feel my legs burning. I thought to myself 'okaay.. don't worry.. it's only a little bit longer..'. Course my head was feeling bad as well.. but I lingered on the thought of how it wouldn't take too much longer...

Course then we can't figure out how to get to the parking lot because things are closed off, so we have to get out and walk a reeeeally long while to go get them, and then walk the same distance back.
I survived by pretending I was a walking corpse, and mumbling to myself the same thing over and over.

"I feel no pain, I am a zombie. I feel no pain, I am a zombie. I feel no pain, I am a zombie."

On the way back I said:
"The faster I walk the sooner I'll be home. The faster I walk the sooner I'll be home"

I was so relieved to just sit down.....

And I'm so glad I'm home...