Yeah Yeah Yeah..

Lol, shut up Nikhil, I got it I got it. *makes a face*

Pish. That's my way.. Drama. I'm dramatic as hell and I can't help it. If I ever die I'll be sure to make it as dramatic as possible.. With the sad music and the 'I don't want to die!" *laughs* Yeah yeah yeah.. Whack some sense into me, would you? You guys gotta keep watch of me and tell me when I'm being a bit stupid, as always. I'm always stupid. It's my nature. So would you guys..--? Warn me?? Something? Please? Thanks Nikhil.. I guess. o__o

But the thing is, I seemed to (luckily..) make the right choice even before I got Nikhil's message of 'why the hell can't you guys just be friends?'
I didn't want to be friends if it was going to be awkward and painful for him. He loves/loved me, so wouldn't I just get in the way? Make it harder for him to make the right choices? I don't know.. I get the feeling that I have a habit of wrecking havoc and chaos upon everything, and I don't like to do so. :P So I was worried, mmkay? Yet he wouldn't choose, and nor could I really figure out what to do. Until I finally got out of him that it was bullshit that I couldn't remain friends with him, I didn't know what to do. *laughs* Seeeeee, you've gotta tell me. *knocks on head* *empty sound*

Eh... My apologies.

Fear and memory gets me good. Last time this happened, the person couldn't even be friends with me. It was just plain hard and awkward and hard to stand. So, is it odd for me to think that it might be the same way with this?

Friends. I've never had a friend who's a guy. So forgive my stupidity.