Issues

I'm actually looking forward to going to see a psychiatrist. That's odd. I guess I'd like to know what makes me tick, if anyone can find out more so than I, I'd like to know. And if there's a reason I act as I do. The odd things about me, I just see them as personality, not problem. A flaw, permanent. But, if it could be better.. I'd like that. Or if there's a reason..
My little brother has ADHD. My older brother has about three friends, and he's 18... Very anti-social. My family has a 'mental' background. Not really a bad thing, but it can be a disadvantage. If I have ADHD, I'm going to laugh. I have trouble concentrating on my work at all, but I never thought about it. But with Carson having it, do you suppose I could too? Who knows. I'd like to see. I have a strong suspicion that I indeed do have social anxiety, as they call it.. Hm.. So it shall be interesting.

"Do your teachers change anything about the presentations for you because of it?"
"nope"
"Oh really? That's too bad.." -doctor

You kidding...? As if. I accepted that high school is a semi-nightmare for me, and just deal with the fear. I don't think I'd really want teachers to do anything, because then people would see it as unfair, and I'd be labeled. Well, as if the shaking isn't enough to make them label me, but obvious change would just make it worse. I don't want people staring. I can deal with it for five minutes.. Maybe. :P

If school would be enjoyable.. Well.. that'd be funny. I hate school. So many eyes and so many ways to make a fool of yourself. *sighs* .. I hope summer goes slooow... I'm worried.