Finals and Stuff

Mmhm! The joy of finals!

Tomorrow I have my two worst. Math and Japanese.. Well shit. Doooooooooooom! ^___^

But oh well. I'll study all I can, and try to keep off this computer most of the time. I wonder if I ever have truly studied... I used to in 7th grade, but when 8th grade and now 9th came along.. All my good habits went out the window. Now I can't convince myself to sit down and study. First of all, distractions. Yesterday my grandparents came over, and right now my mom's friend Daylite came. I could tell that he was here before I crossed the street, because you can see his huuuuuuge truck. It says "Northwest Freeride" on it, which is a jetski movie he made... Yeah. It's good. Not a movie, exactly.. more.. How to explain? You get to see a huge bonfire, a party, tons of jetski races and tricks, and when Daylite and his friends break their skis in stupid ways. It's funny.
It's a laarge truck with those huuge wheels. It's pretty funny. Really stands out... So yeah.

So, when I go downstairs to sit and try to study, mom starts talking to me. Carson comes home, noisy and singing to himself and trying to tell me about something from a videogame. Then Alex says that he has to show me something, now or never. "I found a funny video on the net". Then Carson invites his friend over, and they play loud annoying music and jump and fight and stomp around. I can't think. I'll be sitting there, zoning out. I think "oh.. I wanted to tell.." and try to remember the thing I wanted to tell so-and-so. And then I will think of my scrapbook, and yearn to work on it, as I have the perfect idea. Then I think about Zandry's birthday, and then I think about my blog, and then I want to write. It's hard. I have no skill at concentrating..

"The most satisfying feeling there is, is the feeling you get as you read the very last sentence of a book."

That was on my mind during math class. And..

"Why can't we be like that..? Why can't we be silly, carefree, joking around and laughing and smiling? The most strange and ugly people can be the most wonderful, just with that trait. You have so much fun with those kind of people. You can make a fool of yourself, and have fun doing so. You'll laugh too, as they lighten the mood with their personality. Why can't people not be gloomy, sitting on those stairs smoking their cigarette, feeling fat and ugly, with their old faces and weary minds.. Why can't they just laugh?"

That was on my mind on the bus. I was looking out the window, and I saw this obese grey haired and gloomy looking woman sitting on the steps, with her grocery bags sitting around her. I watched as she pulled out a cigarette, lighting it, staring into space. She looked so weary. I then pictured her, somewhere else, having fun with her friends. I could see a bright smile and a laugh, telling jokes and everyone laughing with her. I wondered why people never do that.
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Last night I was amused. Well, at first I was quite gloomy.. Printer Boy (Zandry) managed to cheer me up, though. : ) My apologies for quoting us again, Zandry.

T: bleh... alll grumpy...
Z: ah, well, cheer up : )
T: hah...
Z: pretend you're at disneyland, and one of the dudes in a mickey mouse costume just blew up
T: lol, that's a little scary. I've never been to disneyland
Z: lol, me neither, but I'd pay 10 times the admission to see that
T: That's cheerful? : P
Z: well, the thought should make you laugh : P
T: lol, at least grin
Z: "Hey kids! Here's a balloon from mickey mouse! ooo, I feel weir---" BOOM and he's in a few thousand pieces
T: heheh... : P
Z: just the expression on the little kids faces, from :D :D to :l :O
T: ooooh, you know what you should do? lol
Z: what should I do?
T: givemeapictureofyou : ) And I should sing
Z: I don't have any : P
T: not even ugly ones?
Z: my face is so fat in this picture
T: Lol *hugs you* Ahhhhh, it failed!
Z: lol, too bad : P
T: no... :( It doesn't work! *sniffles* do you think it would make a di-
Z: difference on msn?
T: lol, did you do that on purpose? : P lol, yeah
Z: lol no : P
T: :D ^___^ *poke*
Z: -poke-
T: lol thanks ^ ^
Z: sure...
T: :)

Heheh..... : D You need to record yourself talking to your locker. I'd laugh sooo hard.