*whistles*

"Shyness is nice, and shyness can stop you from doing all the things in life you'd like to. Shyness is nice, and shyness can stop you from doing all the things in life you'd like to. So if there's something you'd like to try, if there's something you'd like to try, ask me I won't say no, how could I?--- Spending warm summer days indoors-- Ask me ask me--"
-Ask, The Smiths

"Je m'assieds, nu par terre dans l'eau et la suie. Le temps est à la pluie--La pluie était dus-- Avril si cruelle. Avril ma chère j'avais oublié l'hiver. Avril si belle. Avril si cruelle. Avril ma chère étais la mois pour ma plaire... Pour demain contre son mot pour la refoul. Le soliel enterait avant. Je mettais une melodie important. J'avais la soleil dont relu"
-Avril en Mai, Apples in Stereo

"I've been thinking it's a sign, that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images, and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned. And I, have to speculate, that god himself did make us corresponding shapes, like puzzle pieces from the clay. Ture, it may seem like a stretch, but it's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away, when I'm missing you to death. When you, are out there on the road for several weeks of shows, and when you scan the radio, I hope this song will guide you home."
-Such Great Heights, The Postal Service
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What should I write about today..? Life is boring. Makes my head hurt. What if I can't make up my mind, to be happy or sad? I'm getting a headache because I'm not sure which. My lost friend is depressing me..

There's no one here. I like being home alone, but today it's bittersweet. The phone rings. ----

~3 hours later~

Damn. Just as I embraced the silence, the people come back. I'm going to go cower in my room for a few hours now. No, just turn the music up louder. Till the ground shakes. Yet they get on my case.

I feel restless.

Extremely. Sunday is evil.

How to start.. Sitting here, doing nothing, I'm tired, bored, restless, worried, lazy. No different than usual. Balanced on another cup is my favorite mug.. "Wake me up when the weekend arrives!" My friend Iris gave me it for my birthday. It was funny, because she doesn't know my love for sleep, at least I don't remember telling her.

Maybe by will alone I'd be able to make myself be able to eat.. something. Besides all this crap. Maybe the will be be perfect. My body is the holder of my soul, so I have to treat it well. Seeing everyone else make mistakes leads me to avoid each. I have no reason to fall off my path. All summer I'll do well.. Just watch. Become more balanced. Learn to cook, get healthy.

Did you know I'm joining weight training next year? At school..? Only boys sign up for that one, but I'm taking the challenge. It'll be fun. Wait, no, it won't be, but it'll be.. funny. If I pass the class, my confidence will have a big boost. For some reason I'd take pride being the only girl in the class doing something I'm not good at, and surviving. It'd be a laugh. So, during the summer, I have more reason to get fit. I hate exercise, yet I'll find reason to. Because if I don't, next year I'll make a fool of myself. I'll fail terribly at the class. So knowing that, I'll go out and about every day. Every day this summer...
*laughs* I'll be able to say, "In high school, my junior year, I joined a weight training class with all guys, all competitive high-ego guys, and passed!" I'd love to say that. *grins* I don't know why! It'd make me feel just a bit more cool and give me that 'I can do anything' feeling... I can succeed if I try. Prove that to myself, and I'll be confident to do what I want to.

I'd like to climb a tree. How random is that? I'd like to run around. I'd like to go around town.. Oh oh! Box-head! Hahha.. Maybe.. maybe.. That'd be funny.. Maybe maybe not.