Okay, if I could say one thing to him....
"Why are you fucking jealous and why are you fucking swearing like a fucking idiot???? And how did I fuck YOU up, of all people? You fucked with my head! All every wanted was to please you, make you happy. Wasn't good enough, huh? I waited for you for 70 godforsaken days and did you care? My birthday came and went, and valentine's day too. Not a word from your lips. Now that I'm gone, wow.. You wouldn't like me until I was gone, would you? You'd never miss me until you couldn't have me, and it's not like you loved me in the first place. And every angel that falls on your doorstep is perfect for you to break. I'm gonna watch from afar, as you break yet another innocent heart. And you wonder why they disappear.. You push them away." And is he even referring to me, there? I still want an excuse to swear at him.
Hohoho.. Sorry, way too fun. I'm not pissed, I'm just poking fun at him. He's swearing soo much more than he used to, I noticed. Maybe he learned not to bottle it up, like he did when he knew me. But it's still humorous how he has to say fuck every two sentences!
Waaait.. I am pissed. Well, in a way.. Hard to explain. I sound pissed but I don't feel pissed. I've accepted that I hate him, so I don't even feel anything for it anymore. It's like 'whatever. Screw you' and that's all. What the hell is he thinking, though..?
Enough of that.
Timmy's dead, and Zandry's eyes are burning. (sorry.)
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Ouy hcooms ot tnaw I, ZANDRY, yeh!!!! Hahahah.. <3
Love. ^____^ Or lust? Either way, just as good. I wish he was here, it'd be so much fun..
I don't really like the fact that three people are slightly known to read this, now. Or four. Because when I swear I know someone would hear me (and Timmy is drowning). And when I act all weird and slightly embarrassing, I'll be seen. Oh well. Just don't bother me too much about it all. I prefer to rant and cuss and talk all gushy, as much as I want. It's my sanctuary.
I don't like school. I hate it so much. But Alex tells me not to worry, because even if I did bad, I'd likely still get an alright grade. Damn, I hope he's right.. I'm kinda scared, now.. The end of the year, it's so hard for me. Summer beckons, and I just want to give up, now. Do I still have those A's..? Are my teachers stupid? Maybe. Math.. Oh crap math, haha. I'm screwed, okay? So many late assignments, so many things missing, so many tired nights where I just can't do it.. Can't think. Parabolas.. Blah. How was it that you find the what's it called? Midpoint? And the.. Hell, I dunno. I wish I could understand it, though.. I'm worried and tired........ So much..
...Very worried. *closes eyes* I'm an idiot.
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