Today was bad. Quite. I spent the entire day pondering how I would get the hell out of there, how I could ditch or find a way to get home, from school.
Maybe if I threw up. Maybe if I ran. Maybe if I borrowed fifty cents, and came home on the bus, saying I felt sick. Maybe if I went off campus with Mayre. My first four hours were spent, thinking of how I might be able to skip.
I'll read you what I wrote all over my paper, because I don't want to explain in detail. It was the worst I had ever done.
"Faiil. You lucky skilled people. Kuso-- over. Relax. Don't think. Well, think of it this way. NO ONE will do worse! Hurray! I took the honor of erasing everyone's worries of doing terribly. Oh well. Smile. It's over. Started fine, ended bad. Oh oops. Got psyched out. Self-destruct! Eeee-- damn. I screwed it all up! Oh damn. Mission failed. S-s-s-s-shaky s-s-stuttery s-shit! Headache. Oh crap."
"I'm suffering from post-failure stress. To the extreme. Fu----ck! Nonono! The pain! I wanna go home. Can I go home, please? I want to ditch. Take a bus away from here. Now! Let's go! Gyah! Bad bad bad. Heeeadache. I just made a fool of myself. Worst presentation ever. Going numb. My head hurts. Can I faint, or throw up, so I can go home? Pleeease? If I ditched, mom would kill me. Stay, school kills me. I'd rather ditch. But I don't have the change."
I'm going to smile and forget today, and tell you of something else... Well, I don't have time. Later.
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5 comments:
That bad? Really? What happened?
Totally stuttered up my memorized piece. More so than anyone. Shaky stutter nervous bad. Got half way through it and then messed it up completely.
"hell Tanya, you're a goodie-goodie! Goodie-goodies don't get graded down for little things like that!"
:P I'm hoping she's right. Because as far as I know, I did absolutely terribly.
Dear Tanya,
I hope you did it better than you are saying..
It must be. You can't fail! ^.^
Hope you'll smile again soon.
Good afternoon, dear Tanya.
I hope so too.. But, I don't know. It seemed pretty bad, in my perspective.
Good afternoon, Renan. (please say I didn't spell that wrong, haha.. :P)
*chuckles*
Indeed, I did have a lot of rest. Just slept for about three or four hours..
I've never tried ramen before. o__o
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