121/500 Questions Answered

why the hell do people ring the doorbell? -Me, five seconds ago

From theirs. I don't think they look here, yet.

001. What is your name? Tanya Hemingway Glidewell
002. Spell your name backwards: Llewedilg Yawgnimeh Aynat
003. Date of birth: February 21, 1990
004. Male or female? Girl
005. Astrological sign: Pisces
006. Nickname: none.. or..... *laughs* Squirrely Cat. Girly. Family names.
007. My profession: someday an author? poet? artist?
010. Hair color: dark brown
011. Eye color: dark brown, much like my hair
012. Where were you born? in Seattle, a hospital, somewhere
013. Where do you reside now: same place
014. Age: 15 +3 months and two days
015. Screen names: thedearlonelyone, goldengirl12@comcast.netm goldengirl0221 (hardly ever)
016. Are you online often? very
017. What does your screen name stand for? thedearlonelyone.. I wanted a new screename so I could hide from my friends, because talking stresses me out. So it's usually for pen pals. And I thought of the first thing I could think of.. thelonelyone was taken, so I added 'dear'. Golden Girl was a code name for me in elementary school between my best friend and I.. 0221 is my birthday.. 12 is my age when I had that email address.
018. What is your diary name? my name is Tanya. My diaries don't have names.. I say "dear journal" and "dear diary" to specific ones. I call them by color. Yellow book. Red book. Yellow is 'dear journal', red is 'dear diary'. I have at least three more of them.
019. What does your diary name stand for? nothing
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? "LOL" written in candles.. how many did it take?
022. Piercings? Ears. No more.
023. Tattoo's? Mom will let me dye my hair, wear weird clothes, but nothing permanent. I don't want one, anyway.
024. Shoe size? 8 and a half
025. Righty or lefty? Righty
026. Wearing: cargo.. is that the name? haha. 'Cargo' baggy dirt-green pants, a moss green sleeveless shirt with a name of a dance place I haven't been to yet. It's my mom's. Short cut white socks. Wide sneakers, a watch. Pink nail polish from the glowing dance.
027. Hearing: Walk Away by Bree Sharp.. "I'm left to counting the days.. while my life drifts away, because you come and go again like the tide, why won't the shoreline last and wash in my pride. And the truth I keep pushing aside, is that it's time to walk away."
028. Feeling: wanting to talk.....
029. Eating/drinking: a lone Pepsi can sits there in front of me, from hours ago

~Friends Stuff~

Which one of your friends is the....
030. Craziest? Mayre
031. Loudest? dunno
032. Nicest? Amanda
033. Bitchiest? dunno
034. Life of the party? Annamarie
035. Jock? dunno
036. Prep? dunno
037. Rebel? Elizabeth maybe
038. Cutest? Iris maybe
039. Best friend of the same sex? Amanda, likely
040. Best friend of the opposite sex?: none.. kinda.. er.. I'm not sure, really.. Nikhil? Just because I talked to him longest.
041. Most popular? Hey, Fern, are you popular?
042. Rudest? dunno
043. Most shy? Amanda acts shy
044. Dumbest? dunno
045. Smartest? dunno
046. Weirdest? dunno
047. Has the best hair? dunno
048. Best personality? nearly all of them
049. Most talented?: dunno
052. Drama queen? dunno
054. Funniest? Mayre
055. Best advice giver? dunno
057. Most likely to join a cult? Annamarie kinda did.. Rocky Horror Picture Show?
058. Have you lost touch with a good friend recently? so damned muuuch.. it's sad.. I'm so bad..
059. Person you've been friends with the longest? Amanda
060. How many people on your buddylist? three on yahoo, two on MSN, six(?) on aim..

~Love/Other Stuff~ (I'm excluding family, okay?)

061. Have you ever been in love? yeah.. poof
062. How many people have you told "I love you"? I think I love you
063. How many people have you been in love with? one
064. How many people have said I love you to you? none
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? *laughs* no
066. How many people have you dated? none *cry*
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes, if I don't glance away.. and the hair they may hide behind
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for? if I could tell, someone who looks to be alone, kind, and creative
070. Do you have a bf/gf? haven't ever
073. Do you have a crush right now? almost, but is it even called that..
074. If so who is it? someone who I may fall for completely (I told them) eventually, which scares me and makes me think I'm an idiot
075. Do you believe in love at first sight? you can't fall like that
076. Do you remember your first love? it's not like it was long ago
077. Who is the first person you really liked? the one who appears in my poems for 70 days, and the one who I called Chocolate-Eyes, with a laugh
078. Do you believe in fate? not exactly, but I believe in happenstance.. little things that lead up to make something strange and too perfect happen
079. Do you believe in soul mates? if a figure of speech, maybe, but what would that mean..
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours? I wish

~Family Stuff~

>>104. How many siblings do you have? two brothers
>>105. What are your parents names? Laurie and Jim
>>106. What are your siblings names? Alex, Carson
>>107. How many siblings does your mother have? two
>>108. How many siblings does your father have? two..?
>>109. Where are your parents from? Illinois
>>110. Is your family close? quite
>>111. Does your family get together for holidays? usually
>>112. Do you have a drunk uncle? nope
>>113. Any medical problems run through your family? maybe diabetes..?
>>114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? I hope not
>>115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? um.. I don't remember.. what does that mean again.. errr..
>>116. Are your parents divorced? thank god, no
>>117. Do you have stepparents? nope
>>118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? no, they're not that mean
>>119. If so for what? nope
>>120. Did some of your family come to the United States from another country? Denmark, maybe.. Hungary..

~Music Stuff~

>>121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? I need to look through my thousand songs.. damn, there are some..
"Sorrow.. for letting someone else.. define you, know yourself at every age. What impression am I making? I see myself as other people see me. There is no going back, I can't stop feeling now.. I am not the same I'm growing up again.. I am not the same. I'm growing up again. There's no going back I can't stop feeling now. I had to fantasize. I was a princess, mum and dad were queen and king. I ought to have what feeling? I see me as other people see me.-- Even those who did, never understood me. I had to fantasize just to survive" -Evangeline, Cocteau Twins
My crushed love- "If you, if you could return.. don't let it burn, don't let it fade.. I'm sure not being rude, but it's just your attitude, it's tearing me apart, it's ruining everything. And I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey so did you.-- Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you? But I'm in so deep... You know I'm such a fool for you.. You've got me wrapped around your finger.. Do you have to let linger, do you have to, do you have to, do you have to let it linger? Oh I thought the world of you. I thought nothing could go wrong, but I was wrong, I was wrong. If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie. Things wouldn't be so confused, and I wouldn't feel so used, but you always really knew, I just wanna be with you. And I'm in so deep.. " -Linger. The Cranberries tell the whole shitty love story, that was just a chapter. There are far too many.

Cranberries-
"I don't want to love you, I still do" -I Still Do
"now I open up and see, the person falling here is me"- Dreams
"Say what you want to, but you won't change me" -Pretty
"but your so selfish that you don't see you're rude to me-- you told me lies, and I sigh and I sigh and I sigh--" -Not Sorry
"Too many misunderstandings causing such delay" -Wanted
"And you still can't find the strength to apologize"- Still Can't...
"And now it's all the same to me, be whatever you want to be, go wherever you need to go. And now it all seems like a mistake" -I Will Always
"Look.. you're standing alone. (standing alone) However I should have known (I should have know)" -How
"And you always prove me wrong" -Put Me Down
"Crying in my head again, and I know that it's not clear." -I Can't

and it goes on. More questions answered next entry.