I don't want it to end..

*sniffs* I can't stop. Because I'm not bothering anyone as I do this, and I can write as much as I want.. Forever.. Hahahha. And I'm worried.. I'm really worried.. I don't want to sleep... I don't wanna.. Don't wanna..

I'm afraid when I wake up, I realize what I did wrong. I'll realize, I should have cleaned my room. That I should have called to ask about the party. That I'm avoiding yet again, and I'm disappointing a new friend. And when I wake up, I'll realize that there's a science project, and I don't know where the handout is.. And I haven't read a book.. When I wake up, it'll be afternoon. I'll be so afraid of tomorrow, I'm so afraid of tomorrow.. When I wake up, the dream of spring break is over. When I wake up, I'll be swamped with stress, worry, depression. Oh, I don't want tomorrow to come.. Never.. Please.. When I open my eyes, the dream will be over.

Oh.. If only.. I didn't finish anything I wanted to do.. I wanted to do so much.. But, I was sick, and my mom can't go out of the house because of surgery. So I was trapped here, for the whole week.. The freedom I'd been hoping for.. It's already gone. All gone. I want to lie in bed, but not sleep. I want to think of arms. Hug = heaven. Simply. To me, teh hopeless romantic. *sigh* ... ". . ." I don't want this to end.. "nothing gold ever stays"

"Don't wake me up yet. I was dreaming, and I'm tired of everyone." -Frente

Fine.. I'll sleep now.